It’s hard being on my shoes :(

You probably don’t know how it feels to be in my shoes, or you probably do.  And if you do, then you know that it’s not a good feeling.  Here’s why I’ve been down lately.

  1. I was surprised to find out that there are two pre-requisites that I need to take before I get into the nursing program.  And one of the pre-requisites is a pre-requisite of the other, you see what I’m saying?  So in short, it will take two semesters before I can get into the nursing course.  And the nursing program is a total of 5 semesters, so all in all, it’s 7 freakin’ semesters!  I might as well get into the BSN program and finish it in 8 semesters!  The only downside of enrolling into the BSN program is that after you graduate, you will be facing an average of $60,000 in student loan debt, and that is pretty scary for me.
  2. I only have 7 days to study for the TEAS test because they didn’t tell me that I need to take that test.  Boy, I can’t tell you how pissed I am so I’m not going to say much about this.  Grrrrrrr!
  3. I have applied for a caregiver job last April 5th and everything went pretty well during the interview.  She even registered a username and password for me to finish the modules online.  It has been weeks now and I still haven’t heard from them.  I wonder if I should call or not.  I keep telling myself that if it’s for me, then they will call.  And this is what you call “torture” in the truest sense of the word.
  4. I got 2 consecutive phone interviews and everything went pretty well.  Finally, after the second interview, they invited me for a face-to-face interview.  Okay, so this should make me feel good, but this job is at the Food and Nutrition Service department and my long-term career goal is to become an RN.  What if they want somebody who would stay in that department and not just somebody who is passing by?  Would they like it if I say that, “Oh this is just a temporary job for me, I only applied because I need to support my nursing schooling, and as soon as I become an RN, then I would leave this job forever.”  Pretty honest, but I’m pretty sure that I won’t get hired if I tell them that.  So, should I just lie then?
  5. I am seeing a lot of job openings but almost all of them requires you to have experience.  It’s just pissing me off.  I mean, is it something that I can’t learn?  For goodness’ sake, I lived a hard life and I am pretty surprised that I am surviving up until now, is there anything that I can’t possibly do?
  6. Finally, just being broke.  I am so broke I can’t afford a babysitter to babysit for my baby while I go look for a job.  I tried bringing my baby during interviews and obviously, they won’t hire you if you bring your baby during interview for some stupid reason.  I mean, it’s not like I want that, I just didn’t have a choice.  I need $20 to pay the sitter but I don’t have $20 so I am looking for a job that will give me $20 to pay the sitter, oh I can go on and on.
I am a naturally optimistic person.  It’s rare for me to become like this.  It’s just that life can be frustrating sometimes and when frustration gets into you, then you get frustrated, hahahaha!  I don’t even know what I’m talking about! 🙂

2 responses to this post.

  1. Ugh! That’s rough 😦 I hope things turn around for you soon. Bad and good times seem to come in cycles, so hang in there!

    Oh, and definitely DON’T tell them you’re only looking for the job until you can get another 😉

    PS: If it wasn’t totally creepy and completely impossible, I’d offer to babysit for you >.< My baby cousin lived with us from birth-6months, and my sister-in-law is having a little boy in June. I LOVE BABIES.


  2. Posted by Jackie Paulson Author on May 29, 2011 at 4:55 am

    I added you for a blogging buddy please stop by. It is nice to know you won’t give up. Stay strong. Your feelings are important. Things always get better.


Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s

%d bloggers like this: